Friday April 9th 2010
Get up, grab some water. Drink a little bit. Put a fresh bottle by the end of my bed. Your welcome future me. I do whatever workout I can. Today it's calfs and abs since I did pushups, pullups, abs, quads and calfs yesterday. These are about what I can do in my living room, doorway and under my coach (my feet for situps).
I turn my computer on usually before I workout to control my mood. Whatever mood I want to be in, I select sounds that will stimulate parts in my body through auditory interpretations of body cycles and actions. Slow music will slow down body functions, fast music will induce fast body functions, erratic music will stimulate the erratic searching that an active and intelligent mind produces when looking for answers and stimulation.
I have no breakfast, but instead go over my list of things to do, count my blessings and think about sex and fantasize about accomplishing my dreams for practice in my head, so when the opportunity comes to me I will have developed a reflex to perform positive actions for myself without hesitation. To name a few I have listened to music to fantasize about sitting and studying, reading good books using imagery for enjoyment and info retention, drumming painfully slow, waking up early, sitting at my computer writing at the beginning and at the end of the day, making videos, recording audio books. These positive habits which can in life to replace worry, pornography, television watching and other things that should never be done purely out of boredom.
I went to school. I wanted to take my bike as usual (fun, save gas) but the weather was warm, I didn't want to sweat or take heavy *&$% book and comp in backpack since my back was sore.
I was hungry and drank water during class. Not sure if this girl would be mad at me for making fun of her during some texts, but looking back at it now, I think she didn't text back because she had nothing to say due to an insufficient stock in cleverness or wit. I couldn't really call wit through text quick as this applies only to live conversation through speech.
The girl seemed happy to see me, as she did the day before when she got the courage to come up and talk to me gleefully so it seemed. I walked with her after class, we were both hungry and ended up settling on In and Out. A place that she said she liked going to. For a small girl, she put down a burger, fries and a drink while I had a single protein style with no sauce. Protein style simply means "no buns". She gave me a ride, and I was to go meat (no bun intended, nyuck nyuck) with this women who sat behind us in our lab. She was married and I was sleeping with her.
Random thoughts
-Time travel and understanding another persons point of view can help you think long term. Think about it, if you think of yourself as being where you want to be and that you have traveled back in time, it's like what you do is for your future self. Now all of a sudden playing pretend as an adult is useful (if you don't already do it). Having kids help you hold onto positive traits that are discouraged like a "healthy" imagination. Statistics still keeping you realistic, having been mostly realistic you should have a clear reality of the odds of things. But pretending to be a time traveler is so much more fun than ordinary goal setting. Just don't try to get a sense of self importance from others, like when you tried to convince them you were a clone.
-Old hindi gods drank silver iodide
-virgin sacrifices were a way of punishing prude girls
-much like running a business will make you more money than a job working for somebody else, having your habits work to your advantage will provide much more benefits to a man than doing anything your conscious of because good habits will work for you all the time whether you're consciously working or not (could not think of adequate examples in real life that would not cause confusion because at this moment I have 4 different thoughts circulating). Glad I can write about myself here so I never have to talk to anybody about myself in the real world although I worry the habit of self disclosure might be strengthened to the point of being a bad habit, hope it can be confined to paper (figuratively speaking). Oh and thank god for spell check.
-Book recomendation: Release from Nervous Tension by David Harold Fink M.D. , Simon and Schuster, New York, 1943
This book is excellent. Recommended in How to Stop Worrying and Start Living by Dale Carneger, Release from Nervous Tension by David Harold is written in a time before Pharmaceutical companies got their grip on the American healthcare system. It is written by a Dr. who actually cares about the worries of his 1,000 + patients that he's treated with practical, natural, healthy and holistic methods which only side effects seem to be positive. Reading it initially brought back anxiety but through the reading of this book (got through 63 pages easy) I have had a much better understanding of what causes worry and the positive things that can be done about it. For the few people who do suffer from such health problems, this could be of great use to you.
-Replace habit example: the guy who picks at his face should sit down to read about whatever it is that is troubling him or write freestyle or with + and - columns of actions and their effects.
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